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Thursday, July 28, 2005

unable

all i can say is thankz to all those ppl ard me..

they realli encourage me alot..

but what i can say..

i still cant forget..

too difficult..

i hate myself for being so weak..

nv i have been so weak...

whenever i see msg-es...

i will always hope that it is him..

to me...

i am realli veri xin ku..

i realli duno what to do..

coz i cant always e moody in front of frenx..

and yet..

i am totally restless..

i am nt happy at all..

hw..

i realli feel like juz ending everything..

but i cant take my life so lightly..

i cant..

i realli hate it...

i have never been such a person to the extend of crying and begging..

but...

i realli duno why..

i will actually do that...

maybe this hurt too much..

i realli wanna numb myself from everything..

but how?!!~

all i wan is him back..

but it is realli impossible for him oso..

why?!

i am thinkin..

if it wasnt that gal..

maybe things will nt be this...

if we have nt met..

things will nt be this way too..

if we right from the start...

dun know each other..

things will nt be this way oso..

i regretted deleting all those stuffs..

i regretted..

but there is nth i can do...

i dun think he will ever read my blog again ba...

i duno..

maybe he is still reading..

maybe he isnt....

but i dun think he care much..

coz we are no longer frenx?

i duno..

to *u...

even though i dun think u will ever read my blog anymore..

but i still think i shld jux type it out ba...

i realli dun understand why u give up so fast..

realli..

i realli dun understand..

why cant u jux fulfil ur promises to me...

why?~

u promised me to be with me and slowly forget her..

and i know it will sure to take a long time..

but why...

the time is so short..

no amt of sorry can cause my hurt to go off..

do u know how much i have put in...

do u know how hurt i am when i receive the sms..

do u know how depressed am i..

have u thought of these when u first decided to be together with me..

have u thought before what will happen to me..

if things become this way?!

i dun think u have..

to speak the truth..

i rather u nt asked me to be with u right from the start..

i rather remain friends with u..

i rather let u forget her first..

i rather be alone..

but...

things can never be changed once u asked..

have u realli thought of it before?!

i dun think u have ba..

coz.. if u have..

i dun think this will be the ending..

maybe that explain why u nv say u love me ba...

maybe that explain why u always asked whether i got regret anot..

and if i have nw or future.. u will nt force me to be with u ba...

maybe that explain why u nv say u miss me ba..

maybe..

i duno..

i realli duno...

i am totally lost..

=>unable<=
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7/28/2005 10:23:00 AM

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